Should Know Me

I shouldn't have to prove myself to you. You should know who I am. You watched me grow up. Why do I have to? Why don't you understand every word that comes out of my mouth? My words have meaning, they are not just fighting words. What I say is who I am, but I shouldn't have to say them. I shouldn't have to sound like a broken record. I tell you who I am and its like you don't even listen. Why don't you?

Everytime you make me defend myself, I walk farther way. Don't shut me down because I am getting so far away that I don't want you to be around. But I should, because you are my parents. You should see what this is doing to me. No book can tell you what it does to me. Only I can, but you should know. You should know me.

I am the one
That completely looses
When you
Just assume

I am not
Not the same
As you are
I am different

So don't assume
Don't put me
On the defensive
Don't push

I will defend
I will push back
And get way farther
Away from you

I am sick
Of the same
Old song and dance
It gets nowhere

Writing: Not Rewritten or Redrawn

I can't
Redraw or rewrite
The feelings of the past
They are unique

Our certain situation
Can't be rewritten
Can't be replicated
Barely can be explained

No one else can
Draw the picture
We drew
Sketched out what we did

The past
Is not erasable
Something new
Must be written

Because feelings
Can't stop
The pages of life
It must be written

But we wont be
redrawn the way were
It's in capable
Never can be the same again

Writing: Feeling Without Pain

I am feeling
Without pain
Stepping foreword
Not looking back

Looking into your eyes
I feel no pain
No dwelling
Just hope

I will let this feeling
Take me in
Because it can lift me
Heal my wounds

Letting the door open
Feeling lite again
Some that I thought
Was so lost

Now holding on
To some substance
Its there
I'm will not let go now

Writing: You Taught Me

You talk about her
You haven't learnt much
But I have
You have tought me a lot

You taught me
That no matter how hard
You fall for someone
They might not pick you up

You taught me
That no matter how hard
You hold on to something
Something can be nothing

You taught me
That no matter how shitty
Things are at the time
More feeling doesn't change that

You taught me
That strong friendships
Can make it through
Past things broken

You taught me
To leave the past behind
Because when moving foreword
It makes you trip

But one thing you
Just couldn't teach me is
That you need to let go
Because time moves on

That there is someone
With substance
That causes light
In the darkest tunnel

Life: READ THIS, I am Going to Live by This Now

I got this from my US Government teacher. It's kinda odd that a Government teacher would give this out, but I found it amazing.

I believe that...
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

That no matter how bad your heart is broken that the world doesn't stop for your grief.

That your background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

That you shouldn't be eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

That you should always leave loved ones with loving well wishes. It may be the last time you see them.

That you can keep going long after you can't.

That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

That we don't have to change friends, if we understand that friends change.

That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

That you either control your attitude or it controls you.

That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, that passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

That heroes are the people who do whaat has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consquences.

That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, wil be the ones who help you get back up.

That two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

That even thought you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

Interesting: We Have to Plan For a Terrorist Attack!?

I just saw a commercial about how we should all plan for a terrorist attack. That makes me feel safe. Doesn't it make you?

How can you really plan for one? It could be anywhere. What are you going to do? Meet up somewhere?

It's like were some poor socialist 3rd world country. We actually have to plan for a terrorist attack. What surprises me the most is ABC Family has this commercial playing every commercial run through. So kids run to their parents an say, "Hy mommy how do we plan for a terrorist attack?"

So tell me, how would you plan for a terrorist attack if say the city closest to you is being blown up and you can see planes flying over head? Post your answers in the comments, I would love to hear your ideas.

It's like those nuclear bomb commercials where little Billy is saved by ducking and covering under his desk. Because a desk could really save your life.

Sammy aka Blusparrow

Writing: Don't Want to be Right

Don’t Want to be Right

Knew it
The way she talked
That you two
Would become one

I’m right
I just didn’t want
To see it
I never do

But what is the point
In being right
If I’m the lonely one
Tonight

I had my chance
To be with you
I let you go
Now you’re the happy one

Someone is holding you
I wish it would be me
I wish I wanted
It to be me

I still don’t
Want it to be
But does that mean
I deserve to be alone?

Since the beating
I have taken
This is not something
I wanted to be right about

I have to live
With the choice I made
I knew it
I don’t want to be right

Sammy aka Blusparrow

Life: I will post things written here for now

So since Ficlets has closed *tear*, I need a place to post what I have written. I have decided to use this place because it is my own. I will use this place until Ficly comes out. So here is the poem that I would have posted on Ficlets today,

Life Would Suck Without You

Who would have thought
That when I met you
Things would turn out
The way they have

Now it seems
That a day without you
Is incomplete
Unwritten

Even though
It has been a roller coaster
It’s been an experience
That I could only share with you

No one else
Would have stuck around
No one else
Would have said what you did

Because of you
I am stronger than ever
I won’t break
The same way I have before

So stick around some more
Because life
Would really suck
Without you

Sammy aka Blusparrow

Video: One Year in 40 Seconds

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmIFXIXQQ_E

I thought it was cool and calming. The birds chirping adds to the calm. Kinda shows how even though 2008 was full of surprises, ups, and downs, there was some calm. Something that you could just look back at and watch. That is why I showed the video. I hope it calms you down as much as it did for me. Maybe it just bored you, I don't know.

Sammy aka Blusparrow

Life: First Blog Entry, Happy New Year!

Hi everyone and happy new year. As you can tell this is my first blog post. I thought I would start of the new year with starting my own blog. In this blog I will post some cool stuff, some funny stuff, some informative stuff, and some stuff that is combinations of stuff. That is a lot of stuff haha.

If you want to really get into my personal stuff, read my poems and short stories on Ficlets. No, we will not talk about Ficlets expiration. That is to sad to even mention. Anyways I would like to know what you think of my writing so if you ever check it out let me know. If your a fellow Ficleter let me know also. I do have my inner circle of Ficlets friends but it's always nice to meet more.

Well moving on. As the year starts up, I have made some changes to my life. At this new outlook on life along comes a new hair do.

Better than just straighting my hair. I also have made some resolutions! The list is not fully made, but I have some so far. The first one is get off an emotional roller coaster which I am working on as we speak. Ya, we wont get to much into that one. Secondly, I am picking up yoga again. I kind of lost track of yoga with school and other things but I am picking it back up again. Third, I am going to have more fun. By fun I mean get out of the house more and hang out with my friends. That is all I have so far, but I should come up with more.

Now that I have bored you with my resolutions and my new hair style, I'll finish this entry with more information about this blog. I will blog entry quiet a bit, unless no one decides to read it then it will become pointless. Well, I am off to finish editing this blog some more. ttyl,

Sammy aka Blusparrow